Miriam Slozberg and children who survived the torture of Auschwitz.

Note from HFR: While Miriam's past life during the Holocaust was not famous, the event in history was, and the important messages she has to share must be heard worldwide.

I was always a very unhappy and terrified child even though I had come from a loving home. I always felt like an outcast even as a young child, and always had terribly low self esteem. I did have numerous learning disabilities and a mild form of autism, and I knew I was different and was not proud of it. My language came in quite late, and once it did come in, I always talked about how shameful it was to be different. I even believed that being different could mean death. My shameful feelings of being different were reinforced during my preteen years.

I was once in a school where I was accepted by my classmates regardless of my learning differences. However in grade 6, I was moved to another school where I was severely bullied because of not just having poor social and communication skills, but I developed acne and started gaining a lot of weight. The weight gain was not just due to hormones but I always had an unusual addiction to food and did not start gaining weight until age 11. I always made sure that I was the first one to clean my plate, so no one could take my food. At the same time, even though I had such an addiction to food, I also had a severe phobia of other people around me throwing up. If anyone in my family got sick, I would scream and hide. I could never be around anyone being sick. I was more phobic of others being ill than myself. By the time I was a young teen I fell into a serious episode of depression and contemplated suicide at times. I knew I was a freak! I was stupid, so I believed, I was ugly, I was fat, I could never make a friend, and I was obsessed with food while I also had a severe phobia of being sick. I knew I had some deep demons within but did not know where it came from. However, maybe I did know deep down, but was not able to accept it.

For instance, my paternal grandparents were Holocaust survivors. Every time my grandmother would visit and talk about the Holocaust, I could simply not listen. I was still young, I would not have known what the Holocaust was about, but at the same time I knew there was something about it that I simply could not face. I also could never stand to watch anything to do with WWII, let alone the Holocaust. Even the Fuhrer's name gave me the creeps. I also went on a European tour in my early twenties and never, ever wanted to visit Poland. I did visit Germany though, and felt extremely uncomfortable there.

Come years later, still battling demons within, failing to accept myself, events in my life led me to make some horrifying discoveries. I decided to once and for all find out why I am nuts, and why I felt like I was given the short end of the stick so I believed I was. After having several intuitive readings from past life mediums, I found out not only was I a Holocaust victim, but I was a child ripped away from my parents.

I had discovered that I was born in the late 1930's in Warsaw, Poland to a Jewish family. I was just a four-year-old-girl when the Nazis barged into our apartment and tore our family apart. We were thrown into ghettos, and we were starving. My father was shot while we were being rounded up. We were stuffed in cattle cars, on our way to Auschwitz-Birkenau. I never saw my mother and brother again. I was thrown into an experimental lab and hormones were injected into me. I also saw others in the lab vomiting around me. The site of that horrified me as it was. By that time I had retreated into my own world. My "fantasy land" was my only means of survival since I was sick, tortured and starving. Since I had miraculously survived the experiments done on me, I was sent to the gas chambers. At age five I had perished. I had not known I had died so I had stuck around, and discovered that my mother and my brother had been liberated by the Russians. They were placed in a displaced person's camp and eventually moved to the Low Countries. My mother had died from a stroke however, several years post liberation and from that moment I had ascended to the astral with her.

We tend to come back in the same state of mind and emotions as we did when we died in our last lives. I had been in "another world" when I had perished. I came in the same way, and that is one reason that I have some mild autism and learning disorders. The autism was also a protective mechanism to prevent me from remembering my past lives at a young age. It is true as I had no recollections of actual memories, but my emotions and feeling of terror was the same as it was in my last life. My low self esteem was carried over from that brief and torturous life since I was led to believe I was less than human. My food addiction was due to me filling a void since I had horrible depression and no self esteem but also due to an inner fear of starving to death and needing to clean my plate. My phobia of illness was due to what I had witnessed in the experimental labs. My depression, anxiety and feelings of despair were due to obvious reasons. I had been ripped away from my comfort and family who loved me, and thrown into a place of hate and torture, and death.

I feel some peace and acceptance as to why I have felt like I had suffered my life. However I also feel that after going through such torture, especially at a tender age in my last life, I will likely be completely healed in several lifetimes to come. I am ready to deal with my food addiction and find happiness within, but there are issues that I am not at all ready to face like my phobia. I am still far from healed but I am on a path to healing. It also helps a lot knowing that my daughter today is my mother who survived the Holocaust, reincarnated. We needed to reunite, but in opposite roles this time. Because I have been on a quest to find out how to heal from my demons, I had already written a book about my recent past lives called "My Five Autobiographies", and I am in the middle of working on my second book which is about Holocaust reincarnation as well as the phenomenon of past life astrology which will be called "Stars Behind the Tortured Soul". I aim to have it completed by January 2011. An m2ebook preview of my upcoming book is available here Healing the Tortured Soul.

I also believe another way to heal which has helped me in many ways is forgiving reincarnated Nazis, especially those who have been learning from their past mistakes. I am extremely lucky enough to have formed a special friendship with a woman who was a Hauptsturmfuhrer (very high ranking SS, commandant of a death camp) in her last life and is doing her very best to not only take responsibility to help balance her karma and evolve but to also help reincarnated victims heal. I used to believe that all Nazis are burning in hell, until I met my friend. She made me understand the position she was in. She did not want to kill anyone, but if she went against the Reich, she would have ended up with the same fate as the victims. She killed out of fear. And I believe that many Nazis were in the same position as her. She helped me understand her position as I had helped her understand mine. Her friendship has helped me more than words can say. Meeting her was a true gift. In fact her and I run a forum that are specifically for reincarnated victims and reincarnated Nazis to come together and to talk, and to find compassion towards one another which will be a great stepping stone to healing even more. If you feel you are a victim or Nazi reincarnated who want to heal, evolve, forgive and find compassion, we would love to have you participate on the forum, and feel free to contact me at mirb7000@gmail.com

In a nutshell, I came into this world a complete mess with numerous issues. I still feel in many ways like a mess but I am also finally starting to heal from my past. It again may take more than one incarnation for the work to be complete but the bulk of the work I believe is in this life. There is a lot more about my life involving my past that I had not added in this blurb that can be found in my books. I know there are many others out there who are in the same boat as I am, who have dealt with their own inner demons, and who are likely reincarnated victims of the Holocaust. It gives me pleasure not only helping myself get onto a healing path, but helping others who are dealing with past life demons regardless of past life also heal.