A note from Jessica.
This is a case that I've handled with a great deal of care due to the open wounds involved. I have been working with Jenny for about five months at the time this page is published and this case is an example of how the damage people do to each other carries into future lifetimes. Truth be told, I would have been highly skeptical of anyone coming to me expressing such ideas about a murderer because there are women out there who are prone by virtue of mental illness to infatuations with killers. The reason why I believe Jenny is because this is not a beautiful, sweet story attractive to romantic-minded ladies. She has repeatedly expressed frustration that things were unfair and she often wishes she never knew about it. Thirdly, I trust myself as a medium and I was warned several times by Booth himself that people who knew him were going to start finding me. It was a long time before Jenny came along and I never made that claim in public. Since then, two other people have come forward quite reluctantly, not knowing about the warning.

When people attempt or succeed at suicide or murder in past lives, it takes many future lifetimes to heal those wounds. Jenny is just beginning to walk down that road. Often there is a great deal of anger from her toward Booth as if he attempted to kill her himself. The path to healing and letting go of that old life for her is going to be a long, tough walk that begins with taking personal responsibility for her own role in the tragedy of that life as well as learning to view Booth through the eyes of reality. He was a damaged man but that does not excuse his crimes. He is paying for his crimes as we speak. I'm under the impression, although I haven't been told directly, that Booth is not being allowed to reincarnate until his soul fully understands the wreckage he created and left behind with that lifetime. Much of that wreckage includes using, abusing and destroying many more women than history remembers. Many of those women have reincarnated with those wounds and he has used other mediums besides myself to try and get to them. Jenny is simply the woman who had the courage to come forward in public. I believe it is part of her healing process because I find that once you open the dialogue and start sharing your pain, the power it has over you begins to fade.

My hope is that Jenny sharing her story will help others recognize the danger in perpetuating toxic relationships, as much as you may love each other.


Pictured here is Jenny Tubb, the present incarnation of Ella Starr. No known photo of Ella exists. John Wilkes Booth is pictured on the right.
As told by Jenny.
I still can hardly believe what I'm about to write. It started over 14 years ago. You see, once upon a time a 12 year old girl became obsessed with a handsome 26 year old actor. Sounds normal right? Not quite. The 12 year old was me. And the actor... well, the actor happened to be John Wilkes Booth, a man who has been dead for over 150 years and is mostly known to the general public as the notorious assassin of one President Abraham Lincoln.

... yeah.

This obsession came about when I received a book of unsolved Texas mysteries for Christmas. One of the unsolved mysteries was about a Texan who claimed to be the infamous John Wilkes Booth back in the 1880s; that he had escaped death in 1865 and another had died in his place. This John Wilkes Booth guy intrigued me greatly; none of the other "unsolved Texas" mysteries in that book was nearly was interesting to me.

I don't know what on earth drew me to him, why I had this fascination with him. Even as I realized that he probably didn't escape in 1865 like my little Unsolved Mysteries book claimed, my obsession grew as I fanatically studied the Lincoln Assassination. I would find myself fighting with teachers in high school whenever the topic came up in history class as I felt the need to defend John Wilkes Booth, to shield him from being called a "madman assassin." It was just like when someone insults a friend, you know? I felt like I knew John, and I just knew he wasn't the diabolical villain that all the teachers made him out to be. So I stood up for him. I'm sure the other kids in my class thought I was insane.

Anyway, my little obsession with John Wilkes Booth intensified greatly in July of 2011, and I didn't know why. Every other thought would be of his name or an image of him - it was almost as though these thoughts were being placed into my head and were not my own. Whatever was going on, it was getting too intense for me to handle alone. I've always been interested with the paranormal, and I immediately wondered if this was Booth trying to contact me somehow. But why would he want to contact me? My best guess was that maybe he liked me because I didn't see him in a completely bad light like other people. Just ... something about this man would absolutely not leave me alone, and I was frankly overwhelmed by it.

Not once did I ever consider that I could have been connected to this man in a past life even though I believe strongly in reincarnation. I always thought I was a Confederate soldier.

One night while fanatically looking up "John Wilkes Booth" on the Internet for the millionth time that month, I ran across the blog of Jessica Jewett, an author and spiritual intuitive. My mouth dropped open when I clicked on her site. Right in front of my face was a picture of John Wilkes Booth and an entry Jessica had written about her experiences with his spirit. And that wasn't the only entry concerning Booth; Jessica had written a series about him and his communications with her.

Immediately I knew this was the person I needed to contact since she was apparently making direct contact with John's spirit. I booked a reading on the spot and emailed Jessica with the question: "Can you please tell me why the hell I am obsessed with John Wilkes Booth?" I told her about my childhood fascination and how I was being overwhelmed by what I felt was his spirit now.

"That'll be easy," she said. "He's one of my regulars."

And I breathed a sigh of relief.

Unfortunately around this time, I told my story on a paranormal website that I won't name. And I was told by claiming to be a psychic that John Wilkes Booth was a negative, evil entity who needed to be "cleansed" from my psyche. I refused to give this "psychic" permission to "cleanse my psyche of Booth." It was as though something was screaming, "NO, NO, NO!" inside of me. I was hysterical and in tears at the suggestion that I might be under attack by a negative entity, and I emailed Jessica right away to ask her if I was, in fact, in any danger from Booth.

Jessica told me to calm down and explained that Booth was no negative entity and whoever I'd been talking to was probably a fraud. She also told me that the reason I was so overwhelmed by Booth was because I had been Ellen Starr in a past life. Ellen or "Ella" had been a prostitute and one of Booth's favorites at that, and he's been going around in spirit and trying to make amends with the women he hurt.

It was as though I went into shock. It explained so much about why I felt the way I did about John Wilkes Booth and why I had since I was 14 years old. Immediately I looked up "John Wilkes Booth and Ellen Starr" on the Internet and got the result: Booth often lounged in the arms of Ellen Starr, who was in Washington at the time of the Lincoln assassination. Miss Starr was but one of many.

Oh my God. She was real.

Historically there is little information on Ella Starr's life. The biggest occurrence concerning her happened when, the day after John Wilkes Booth shot Lincoln, she tried unsuccessfully to kill herself by taking chloroform as it was reported in the newspapers at the time.

Through initial and follow-up readings with Jessica, I learned all about my life as Ella and why I had been so deeply connected to John Wilkes Booth. I-as-Ella was one of the few women that John was able to have an emotional connection with. You see, John was mentally ill. He was probably bipolar and God knows what else. Jessica says there are still black holes in his memory from the last months in 1865 even though he is in the spirit realm now. He was a damaged man. And, unfortunately due to his illnesses, John Wilkes Booth "loved" in his own way, a way that wasn't necessarily what love really is. He never had the capacity to put someone else's needs above his own. Ella was apparently one of the few who had his commitment as best as he could commit.

I did love John Wilkes Booth when I was Ella. We had some wonderful times together that he reminded me of through Jessica when I was feeling deep resentment and rage towards him for having other women. And I-as-Ella was so distraught when he shot Lincoln that I tried to commit suicide. I'm still dealing with the consequences of my own actions as well as his.

Do I still love John Wilkes Booth even now? Yes, I do. I know I love him as a fellow spiritual being, and I know he still cares about me (his spirit even visits me on occasion to check in on me). But there is also that romantic residual love left over from Ella. There are times when I'm so infatuated with him that I can hardly stand it; I sometimes still see him as my knight in shining armor so to speak! Jessica has had to explain to me that I need to stop putting him on a pedestal like that and accept him for who he really was, and not to think of him as the perfect man who will save me from all of my troubles. He certainly isn't as horrible as most people make him out to be but he also isn't the demi-god my residual feelings can make him out to be. And that is hard as hell to accept sometimes. At this point I still want my happy fairy tale ending with him just as I did when I was Ella, but unfortunately in reality things just don't work that way.

And as much as I still care for John, there have been plenty of times when I've been so angry at him that I've screamed out loud at him, cursing him and wishing I'd never known about my wretched past life at all. I've had plenty of hysterical crying spells over that man and over the woman I used to be (having been a prostitute isn't exactly something I am proud of), and they certainly aren't tears of joy. I've been overcome with pure jealousy towards some of his other women. Jessica can tell you all about that - I've done my share of complaining about the other women and my frustrations to her.

I also learned about other members of my family who are connected to me from my life as Ella and why I harbor some of the feelings I do towards them. For example Ella was abused both physically and mentally by her mother who has reincarnated as a close relative in my current life, and there is still a lot of anger, mistrust, fear, and abuse involved with this person that has carried over from my 19th century life. Jessica once said something to the effect that I will probably have much more difficulty resolving issues with my own current family members than I do with John Wilkes Booth!

I still have a lot of residual feelings, especially concerning guilt and jealousy, left over from my life as Ella Starr, and I am slowly working to try and resolve them with Jessica's help. Ella's life and the figures in her life, especially John Wilkes Booth, have greatly influenced several unpleasant situations in my current life. As I learn more and more about this woman I once was, I believe the knowledge I gain will be instrumental in helping me overcome the many residual issues that have been passed from my 19th century life to my current one.